It seems I have fallen off the face of the blog world

I know it seems as though I have disappeared since the holidays hit

And I am so sorry and a little sad about it

It all started in December when my hubby was out for a 3 week break

We had family in town, had a blast with no responsibility 

and was getting ready for Christmas 

It was amazing and I loved all of the time with family

Now it is Jan 14 and I have done a total of 4 posts this whole month

I am a slacker but it isn't because I don't want to blog

or because I cant think of things to share with you

It is because I am busy but not just any kind of busy 

or not just a oh the day slipped away from me type of busy

I started my student teaching this month

And for all of you teachers or those of you who have done student teaching

know how crazy, stressful and busy it really is

And I am also a mom so it is like I am a working mom right now

I don't know how all you working moms do it

I just started and I am already counting down the days to April 20th 

when I am done and back at being a SAHM to my little Maddux

I still plan on blogging I just did my first week

at student teaching so it is just still new to me and it will 

take some time to get used to managing my time a different way

I do not handle change or leaving my baby all day very well

but I know I just need to get this last little step in my education complete

So I can officially be done and have all those

years of college worth it 

Am I excited to student teach? honestly no

I am terrified

It is out of my comfort zone, not because of the kids 

but because of the mentor teachers watching my every move

I hate that I am leaving Maddux throughout the day

I miss being a SAHM and I totally took advantage of it 

I don't feel qualified

I don't feel confident

I don't know if I can really do it 

But I am I am going to do it even if the stress and fear kill me

I am going to get through these next three months 

Do I plan on teaching right away?

No I love being a stay at home mom

Love it and it is what I want to do 

Yes I did get a degree and yes it is important to me to finish 

but that is more for a just in case if I NEED to get a job I will have a 

degree in something that I can 

it is also so when my kids are in school if I want to work then 

I will just work when they are in school and will have all the days off they have

including the summers 

What I am student teaching in?

My degree is in Physical Education 

and Health in my major

so I am student teaching in both subjects 

I will be teaching 3 classes of each, have two different mentor teachers

and am at Murray High School 

Another reason why I am terrified is I did not major in PE

because I played every sport in high school 

in fact I was just a gymnast and ran track

I am a PE major because being healthy and exercising is very important to me

So when I found out I was student teaching in sports skills 

instead of fit for life like I thought I just about died

so out of my comfort zone

But I will get through it and if I can teach sports skills 

then the rest should be a breeze. 

This week all I did was observe 

but I am stressing about if I will be ready when the 

time comes I am teaching on my own

Next week I will be co-teaching which is good but also 

a bit awkward when do I talk? did I talk enough?

you know stuff like that

Then after I co-teach for a whole unit which is just a few weeks

I will be teaching and planning lessons on my own 

Also while I am student teaching I have to be working on a HUGE 20

page paper work sample that I will be turning into SUU at the end of my student teaching

Yeah I hope I make it through all of this 

April 20th please come fast and please be worth it all

So now I just need to tell myself I can do this

I can do hard things

There is no reason why I should be stressing so much I am making myself sick

Yes it is out my my comfort zone but when I am done

and have earned that teaching license it will mean more to me 

that I did it and it was hard than if I just breezed through it all

I need to believe in myself

I need to make some mistakes and learn from them

I need to really listen and learn from my mentor teachers

I need to prepare

I need to relax

I need confidence

I need to suck it up

HERE is to student teaching, being awesome and gettin her done!

I do have to mention how lucky I feel that

even though I have to leave Maddux and give up 

being a SAHM for a few months he is so many great hands while I am gone

On Mondays and Tuesdays Ty only has one class so he

plays with Maddux most of the day

and my amazing mom drives 45 minutes to my house to watch M

while Ty and I are both gone on Mondays 

Wednesdays Ty's amazing grandparents are watching him all day

On Thursday Ty's aunt is watching him and he gets to play with his little 

friend Carson and on Fridays my mother in law

switched around her whole work schedule to take Maddux 

Seriously all these people have saved our lives 

they are amazing and Maddux will have a blast with them all 

Now I need to think of a really awesome thank you gift for them all

when I am done. Ideas are appreciated :)

I will be getting back to blogging and yes even 

before April 20th I will find time to

why? because I really love it and 

I love to have a creative outlet so if I find some time to craft

I want to share it with you all

Thank you to my readers

I hope you understand 

I hope you check back often 

and I hope you stick around and continue reading

Also all you teachers out there

Any advice for student teaching?

What are your stories?

what worked?

what didn't?

what helped you through it?